Do not worry about tomorrow…

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Once again another ‘easier said then done’ phrase. Since this life-changing accident I’ve really been listening to what God’s been saying. Even in the most insignificant events, phrases, anything. (I know You’re There – Casting Crowns)

So, I am coming to the conclusion that this accident has occurred for many many many many more reasons than I can possibly think of. In not only hearing how so many people where directly /indirectly affected by this accident are nothing short of miracles. However, within myself it seems that so many things were being red flagged. I’m going to only touch on this one realization now…

I was and still struggle with worrying. I must say that I have improved in this department. The accident left me somewhat debilitated and leaving me completely dependent. And for those who really know me (and witnessed it first hand) know that was not OK with me. However, in time I found myself so helpless that I know that I needed the assistance to even brush my teeth or my hair. Nonetheless, the worry level went off the charts… I worried and worried and worried.

o How was this going to affect my three children?

o How was this going to affect my current relationships?

o How was this going to affect my job? After landing a great job with great co-workers and bosses (that doesn’t happen very often).

o When will this all be over?

o When can I get back to the swing of things?

Countless unanswered questions, all covered with a layer of humor. I tried not to show how worried I really was. There came a point in that rut that I started to realize the truth behind ‘Everything Happens for a Reason’. A phrase I used to use so loosely. It gave a whole new meaning to “Let Go and Let God”. I had to let go of everything and I mean everything: Self-Respect, Fear, Worry, Depression, Loneliness, Self-image with my disfigured face, EVERYTHING! After I let it go, I offered it up to God. I basically said Here you go my Lord, I am offering this huge burden up to You. I can’t seem to handle this any longer. I’m so tired. I can’t walk this walk any longer. I am so frustrated and whatever Your will is Be done…

Soon after I started to sift through the rubble of what the accident left behind and start to glue the pieces back together. Don’t get me wrong, I am still fighting with the darn glue. But, I have come to the realization that tomorrow is just that TOMORROW! I need to place more focus on TODAY – Pray about Today – Get through TODAY first.

‘DO NOT WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW, TOMORROW WILL TAKE CARE OF ITSELF’
MATT6:34